It is today. Again. O_o Heh heh.... XDDD

Anyhoo... I now know how to take that one pill that I LOATHE. Chocolate Syrup. Yes, the miracle food. XD It has come out form the depths of the fridge to save my poor lost mouth from despair and... infection. O_o Thing is, I HATE the pills and I'm not too fond of chocolate. ^^; But if it gets the crap down then HEY! I'm all for it. ^^

Amber is over now... We've watched Ceres (dubbed) so she can see if she wants the VHS. BAH to peoples for only making DUBBED TAPES. O_o I'm glad I got that DVD palyer now... WE've also watched Sorceror Hunters, Final Fantasy, and Twin Signal. Ranma 1/2 is next after I finish up my blog. ^^

Hmm... Not much else happened today. I finally got everyone's gifts (YAY!) and got over to the OTHER Excalibur to pick up my comics. ^^ I'm very excited. Amber got me the Epyon Model Kit for X-mas, so I'm in the process of building that. It's soooooo damn hard though! At least compared to the SD Gundams, that is... O_o But I'm getting there! XD

I'm also trying to get some new anime stuff for my compy. ^^ I've got these little screen buddies now. ^^ They sit on top of my windows. They are sooooo cute! XD I've also got some other icons and desktops and thingys floating around. ^^ MY anime desktop theme is going to be... RANDOM ANIME CRAP! XDDDDD *pokes the screen*

Other than that... Life is, well, life. ^^ Nothing interesting, nothing cool, just boring. O_o Well, fun actually cuz Ama-chan is over... but that's only for today and tomorrow somewhat. ^^; Hmm... Well, Not much else from this end... ^^;

HAPPY NEW YEAR! XD *puts on a party hat, lights sparklers, drinks wine, and pops balloons* All with one hand at that. ^_~

Quote of the Day: "Pills suck ass."
I figure it is highly appropriate simply because I've got this theme going for everyday that I gotta take these god awful pills. ^^

*~SHEL~*

*sigh* ......

Coughed up the stupid antibiotic pill, got into weird argument/fight wif meg about it. O_o I hate those damn things... mess up my stomach, my friendship, my life. *kills the pills*

ANYway... Everyone cares about me too much. Making me take these pills. You know what? If I loved them, I wouldn't bitch about them all the damn time. ^^; Minus Patrick... he at least seems to understand... either that or he's just letting me screw up my own mouth. ^_~

*watches Cowboy Bebop* FUNKAY MUSAK! XDDD *points at TV and laffs* At least the TV understands. ^^

Nothing much happened yesterday... Trisha came by and we chatted for awhile. Mom yelled at my brother for being a terrible host... and he deserved what he got. I also, um, got dizzy... but I'd mentioned that. ^^: Tummy is fixed now which is great. ^^

Aside from all my complaining... I suppose that today will be better later. Ama-chan is coming over... crap. Which means she gets to watch me bitch! HELL YEAH! XD But oh well. Life sucks sometimes, ya know? And when life is being an ass, kick it in groin. ^^

Interesting today tho... I wake up to mom looking at my massive collection of anime posters. And she sees this one of Asuka from NGE. Well... the comment she makes.. ^^; "Gosh Michelle, her tits are as big as yours!" O_o Thank you, oh observant mother. Then she says that Asuka is hanging out and her tits are showing... I'm like "Mom... She's wearing an Eva suit." u.u Parents... so.... parental.

Quote of the Day: "I lava j00!"

*~SHEL~*

CHEA! Meg's back!!! ^^ *is VERY happy* I lava j00! XDDD

Hmm... Slept until 1. ^^ My mouth hurt AND I was dizzy. So 12 hours of sleep ish good for me. ^^

Tracy called me... It's been looooooooooooooong time since I heard from her. ^^ We talked for about 30 minutes and caught up on life. ^^

And NOW I'm online... talking wif meg and patrick. ^^ Patrick is/was singing to me... ^^ GO PATRICK GO! XD And Megan is sending me moons. ^^ And I'm working between windows... n/m. ^^;; And Brian is now on! CHEA! XD More peoples to talk wif! *gets excited*

I'm dizzy... lack of food... O_o I choked on my pain pill earlier. oops. ^^;

MAybe tomorrow will be much more eventful. *L* XDDD

Quote of the Day: "i was up til past two last night..and the dogs kept ringing and the phone kept barking."
Quote by Patrick! XDDD This was just oo funnay Patrick. ^^ BTW.... you need a nickname. ^_~

*~SHEL~*

I should've said this yesterday... ^^;; MEGGY CALLED ME! XDDD *is happy* Me was extra excited about that. ^^

The new pills help... kinda. 9_9 I hafta take two in the morning and two at night... AND I'm back to my good 'ol antibiotic. >.< So I gotta take 3 advils, 2 acidopolis pills, 1 antibiotic pill, a vitamin C pill, and 1 pain pill (if needed)..... EIGHT pills. >.< And this combination goes on throughout the day with different mixes of the pills. Advil is EVERY time. ^^;

Needless to say, the tummy is better now. Mostly, anyway. It's mainly HUNGRY... but I can understand that. Two days without eating.... my poor baby! O_o

I didn't do much today... Just played Super Smash Brothers Melee with my brother.. OH! And went to the grocery store wif mom. It's brand new... Ooo and ahh at it. XDDD I got some food for the dorm... which is always nice. ^_~

I also went to a handbell party tonight. Handbells are those bells that church groups often play. my definition that I gave to brian. XD ANYhoo... The party was fun... and funny. ^^ Phillip got me a much needed picture frame for Christmas... so now I gotta get him that CD he wants. ^^ I got to have a baby, um, well.... fart in my face just about. ^^; That was a trip... XDDDD I also got a cute little moose that is ringing bells cuz mom got him and gave him to me. ^^ *huggles him* He's tooooooooooo kyoote! XD Other than that........ not much happened today. ^^;

I am talking wif Patrick now... ^^ Brian isn't on... neither is sarah... meg comes back home tomorrow (CHEA!!!!).... I wonder when I get to SEE everyone again? Mina-san................ I miss j00. ;_; *cries*

Quote of the Day: "If life is like a bowl of cherries, then all I've got is a bowl full of pits."
Thank Kida for this lovely quote. ^^

*~SHEL~*

Well well well... It would seem that the antibiotic I must take eats the lining of my stomach. NOT good, NOT fun. My tummy has been killing me for, well, 12 hours now. But no need to feel sorry for me... no one else in my house does. u.u So marf. I've tried yougart... It's supposed to put that lining back. But I'm waiting for it to WORK. O_o Oh well... toorrow, I get an actual pill that should help me out.

Damn pop ups... keeping from typing. O_o

Quote of the Day: "Ow."

*~SHEL~*

MARF! I got my wisdom teeth out today. They gave me the laughing gas, put in the IV, and BAM. I was out. ^^; I woke up about 30 mintues later and the doctor said, "Ok! We're done now! Let's go to the resting area." I'm just like HUH?! So I'm trying to talk to my mom with my mouth full of gauze and blood and all that yummy surgery stuff. ^^; I told her Brian and Sarahw ere going to call, or at elast Brian was. ^^ Then I couldn't breath in the car and I felt like I was in this weird little trance. O_o So I get home... mom sets up the couch for me to sleep, and boy do I ever sleep. ^^; I wake up around 2 or so, and mom feeds me some ice cream, seeing as how it'd been over 12 hours since I'd last been able to eat anything. O_o And, well, I petted the kittay kira who had decided to sleep wif me. =^_^= And as I went to use the internet to talk wif Sarah and Brian, well, the cat got offended and left. ^^; Freaky kittay. XDDD I go back to sleep then... Mom wakes me up at 4 to give me my pills. Now I HATE to swallow, so she put them in my pudding. I HATE pudding anyway... and the pills made it worse. I started yelling/crying that I wanted to sleep and I didn't care what teh doctor wanted. ^^;;;;;; But she made me finish them. Woke up again around 7.... DINNER! Which consisted of balled up bread and luke warm potatoes. u.u No fun.... Then I talked online for a bit longer, and then Brian called at 8 and we talked for about 2 hours. ^^ He wanted to laff at my funnay voice. XDDDD Beyond that.... OH! I took pills again at 7:50.... and threw up. O_o Whoops. So as I'm typing this, I'm being careful as I take my pills cuz, well, throwing up again might suck considering the pill that makes me do this is the antibiotic. >.< NASTAY!

Marf. Tomorrow I go to Excalibur. SQUEE! ^^ That will be much spiffiness.

I watched Lain up until the last episode today. Meggy would be proud! CHEA!!!!

And Patrick understands my pill swallowing problem... Which is cool. ^^ Heehee! I LAVA J00 PATRICK! XDDDDD

Quote of the Day: "Hewwo Bruan. Thif if Mifell." XDDD
How I WOULD have sounded had Brian called while I still ahd gauze in my mouth. ^^;

*~SHEL~*

O_o *eats the last post* The damn thing posted up Kenny's link on the sidebar. ^^;

*~SHEL~*

.... This is being a butt. So here's my link to j00, Kenny! XDDDD Llamaland.org GO THERE! XDDD Ish kenny's site that I WANNA add to the side bar but the template is being an ass about it. gaoo.

*~SHEL~*

WHEE! New DVDs today. ^^ I got Meet the Parents, Twin Signal, and Phantom Quest Corp. Heehee. XDDDD Twin Signal is full of bishies.... *drools* =D~~~~~~ That's always a plus! ^^

I get me teeth done tomorrow. That's always a plus..... I suppose.... O_o nah... It's my wisdom teeth. BLAH to them. So if no update tomorrow, I'm prollies asleep. XDDDD

That's about all I did today... OH! My brother got a gamecube and super smash brothers melee. If EVER there was a fun game. ^^ whee! My brother is trying to unlock characters... I'm just enjoying being Sheik/Zelda. ^^ Now THAT is fun. XDDDDD

I hope to watch the last tape of Lain tonight... =B That way, Meg can't go psycho on my butt. XDDD Heh heh... I'll be soooooo full of Lain knowledge that not even she can surpass my intelligence when it comes to Lain! NYO-HO-HO-HO! =D

Hmm.. Aside from the other stuff... Me is talking to Patrick and Sarah right now. ^^ And calling my kittay over. ^^ *prr* =^_^= COME HERE KITTAY KIRA!!!!! XDDDD Nope, he go under tree. ^^;

Quote of the Day: "DUUUUDE! It's the hamster!" "Um.... okay, Michelle."
Brother got the Rick the Hamster trophy on Melee. If you've EVER played Kirby for the Gameboy, you had BEST remember that hamster. ^_~

*~SHEL~*

Ah yes. NOW it is truly x-mas day. XDDD

Me got a DVD player! That's my fave gift. ^^ I got X-The Movie, Oh! My Goddess the movie, and Final Fantasy to go along with that... I also got clothes. DER. :B And some jewelry... a pretty jewelry box, a photo album, a NICE dolphin statue... the traditional x-mas CD... ^^;;; That's always an odd one... and candy! XDD

I've watched the OMG movie already... Ish weird. Good movie. Not GREAT, not AWESOME, but good. The plot is WAAAAAAAAY too complex and twisted to understand. I just liked chilling wif da graphics. GAH! Ish not a game... I shouldn't call it graphics. ^^; I guess I should say that some of the scenes and animation were done VERY well. ^^ I kinda hate the way they made Keichii look tho. >.< Like Tenchi from Shin! Tenchi Muyo! or Tenchi in Tokyo or whatever.... GAOO. Ish ugly. But Bell gets her moments. And Urd, well, at times looks XP but other times.... Spiffy. ^^ And Peorth! WOWIE! She looks extra spiffy! XDDDDDDD I guess I recommend movie. ^^ It IS 1 hour and 45 minutes... long by my standards for an anime flick, aside from those Miyazaki films. :B

Othr than that... I've just been coloring in a fuzzy poster I got. Wowie. ^^; My boring life... Oh! I did go to Excerd's to buy cheap cheap x-mas stuff for next year. ^^ I went in my slippers and new PJs. Mom thought I was insane, but oh well. XDDD

Quote of the Day: "DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE!"

*~SHEL~*

GAH! I didn't make an official post for the 24th.... but I was at an x-mas eve service from 4:45-12:45. GAOO. But I had sooooooooo much fun! Phillip and I goofed off the entire time. I got to fight with a kittay, pet a HUUUUUUUUUUUGE kittay, play ping-pong, play N64, AND play darts. And eat. ^^ So yay!

I sense an all night internet binge since I've not had it for 8 hours. *is pathetic*

BUT MY BROTHER GOT SIMS HOT DATE! O_o It's an excellent excuse!

*watches the nativity scene fall oveR* oops.

Quote of the Day: "I'd never do crack. I'd never do a drug named after a part of my own ass."

*~SHEL~*

Yesh. New day, nothing to REALLY say. ^^;

I had a great time with my best friend. We watched TV and talked about anime and all sorts of stuff that we needed to catch up on with each other's lives. ^^ And I called her Megan. Oops. >.< But I've also called Chryss Megan before... And I've even attempted to call Megan Pam. ^^; Everyone needs nametags, darn it! XDDDD

MYA! Called meg for 64 minutes and 57 seconds. O_o Mom said only 60 but oh well. It was nice to hear her voice again. I talked to Brian two days ago, but that was BEFORE I started up on my blogging again. XDDD Brian and I talked for, oh, well, 2 hours. ^^; He has MANY minutes on his phone card. :B Nyarf.

I get to go some early x-mas eve deal tonight. My church's bell choir is playing. I'm not. I'm going cuz I'll get to see Phillip and Emily! CHEA!!!!! *cheers* So that'll be cool. As long as I don't have, um, 7 pure hours of non-stop boredom anyway. I should get some batteries for my CD player just in case and grab that book I wanna read.

Quote of the Day: I tried sniffing coke once, but the ice cubes got stuck in my nose.

*~SHEL~*

blah. this compy (Mine) had a virus. poor baby... actually, it had 3. u.u They ran loose until my dad created a different space on my HD or something. Who knows what he did... ^^; So anyway, I've got a new virus thingy. whee.

I downloaded 'Ironic' by Alanis Morrisette. Forgive me if I spell wrong. >.< That's another very cool song. "It's like raaaaaaaaaaaaain... on your wedding day!" XD I think I see this odd theme of me and songs with the word 'rain' in them as an odd outlet... *shrug* Perhaps I should draw or write about this. Not like it'd be interesting or anything. ^^; Come to think of it, I wrote a poem about rain once. It sucked. XDDDD But then agian, most of stuff does. ^^;

Only 2 hours until my boredom shall hopefully subside. Where are you Meg, Brian, and Sarah!!! >.< GAH. No one is online and that's the only cool thing for me to do in my two hours... saa.... At least this internet works now. *prr* =^_^=

This is my fourth stupid post for the day. Dang. ^^;

*~SHEL~*

“Simplicity”
You make it seem so simple,
so easy.
As I watch you in peaceful slumber
not even your name can wake you.
I cry out to you
only to hear a faint noise
the gentle rise and fall of your breath.
It all seems so simple, really.
You ask me how?
I respond...
It’s funny, isn’t it?
You have it rough, yet so easy.
No one hates you, I say.
No one hates you, you reply.
No? Honestly?
Not even myself?
Watching you sleep
I think.
I stare.
I wonder.
Wonder what it is like.
What is it?
I don’t know.
You do.
But you hide it from me.
Hide it behind a beautiful mask that my ugly face can’t look upon.
Frightening, huh?
All my excitement
cheer
happiness...
All a joke.
Mask.
It really is simple, I tell you.
You give me that look.
A look of contempt.
Dislike.
An eye roll! I spot it.
Then I glance over;
you are still sleeping.
Happily curled up in a ball
while I remain curled up inside.
I find it hard
hard to explain.
That chasm!
Do you see it?
It’s forming...
Growing...
Causing me more pain.
Ah! But what’s this?
A new side of me?
Writing... writing...
I am writing!
Writing so all the world can see
just how much I’m hurting me.
How does that work, you ask.
Yes, how does one hurt themselves?
Quite simple really.
But that’s not important now.
As you drive off without me
I don’t stop to say goodbye.
Then I smile and chuckle as I watch you peacefully sleep.

*~SHEL~* 11/28/01

This is my fave poem thus far outta my new little collection... however, I think I shall write a few more today. I need to let out more feelings.... saa.... >.<

“Silent Ending”
Look at me! Look at me I say!
Silence.
I turn around and walk away.
You yell my name...
Silence.
As I walk
I come face to face with you.
Shots are fired-
Birds make a quick escape
Everyone comes running
They see you
They see me
They cheer you on
They laugh at me
kick me...
Throw stones and watch as my insides pour out...
Then you join in.
What am I to do?
Respond?
Something that I did not do is now something I did.
Proud now?
Happy?
I’ll never understand.
Never understand the system.
Is it because I’m little?
Young?
Or maybe it is because I am just being me.
Playful, joking... No one understands.
Perhaps if I’d been born someone else.
A mature prep?
A dirty slut?
Yeah... then they’d like me.
No one ever mocks them
the way they mock me.
Oh?
You want ME to say I’m sorry?
Just me?
Huh.
Amazing.
Something that didn’t even start with me
Must now end with me.
Fine then. Sorry.
But you simply must know-
it isn’t completely heartfelt.
It can never be.
Half of the sorry is mine
the other must be YOURS.
Don’t ask why.
You forced me to.
Threw the scales off balance
and into Turmoil.
So don’t ask me why.
Ask yourself.
I can’t answer for you.
As for everyone else...
Stop.
Stop mocking me-
treating me as if I’m stupid.
It isn’t fair...
But life never is.
I should have let you go.
It’s not anyone would care.
So slam the doors
call me constantly
The pleas fall on deaf ears
just as my pleas have done.

*~SHEL~* 12/1/01

Wow. Many many days since an update. Gomen to Brian who actually reads my blog! XDDD

So anyway... It's been, well, boring. Hence the reason why my blog has been left alone.

On the good side, I passed all my classes. =D 3 A's and 3 B's. Too bad the school calls that a 3.4 GPA. u.u *bites the school*

The bad side... well, fighting. Home, dorm, everywhere. Saa.... *sighs* Oh well. My friend tells me we're all grouchy. I agree, although I'm trying to contain it again. ^^;;;

I went to my anime store yesterday and got the Cowboy Bebop OST 1 CD. ^^ *is happy* I LOVE the song 'Rain'!!!! It is too cool... In the raaaaaaaaaaain... in the raaaaaaaaain.... in the raaaaaaaaaain... ^^ *prrs*

Perhaps I've had a bad day today tho. Meg scolded me for talking about cat while watching Lain. -_- She said I didn't care about Lain. so I watched the tape again but it no appease her. *cries* ;_; I try... I swear I do. But no matter. Then we fight over calling. So I forget about it now. No point in doing something that no one wants me ta do.... *sigh*

I do get to spend the night with my best friend, so maybe that'll brighten my day some, huh? ^^ I'm hopeful anyway.

Brian will not tell me about his dream! O_o gah. There. Now I've mentioned you three times, brian. ^_~ Make that four.

I need something to do....... Today is boring and no one seems to care. Gaoo. I should go over to Excalibur and rent me some anime.... but I gotta finish Lain before Meg decides to come by here and kill me. Saa.... -_- Can't finish it until Mom goes away though, so why even bother renting anything else. Life sucks, ya know?

quote of the day: "Ph34r my l33t n3kkid skillz!"
from www.megatokyo.com
go there. You will love it like we do. ^^ We being Sarah, Brian, Meg, and myself. ^^

*~SHEL~*

I couldn't sleep at all last night. BLECH. So I'm staring blankly into space. I look like crap..... >.< Not even my 30 minute shower helped me! *yawn*


Meggy got back from her Pre-Cal final... I hope she did well! =D I've got my bio one in 2 hours and 40 minutes. OH THE JOY. u_u


I had a scary breakfast... Icky pasta thingy with sausage in it. >.< I hate sausage! XP I wish I knew it was in there BEFORE I got it........ gaoo.


I think I try to go to sleep now. Who knows. Might succeed.


Well... I slept all right. ^^; *got little studying done* Oh well..... Such if life! I just got from my bio exam.... What joy. What fun. Oh the excitement......... -_-* And I found out that I only got a 79 on my last test which I studied my BUTT off for.... GAOO! XP Other than that, I'd say life is going all right.... I'm about to type up that one essay... SHOOT! I forgot! I gotta finish up my english essay and get that crap turned in!


Got it all turned in and finished up the one essay! WOOHOO!!! Not too much more to do except that histroy essay.... dear God, that one will be horrible. >.< *bites the essay*


I have the urge to play FF7 now...... Meggy will prolly yell at me for not working on my stuff, but oh well. XP Heehee.... *huggles Meg* I'll do it, um, after dinner while watching the movie. Trust me... history is SO boring that I know I'll be watching more than typing. ^^; *huggles huggles huggles*


Quote of the Day: "IwenthomeandmymomwascookingdinnerandIwaslike WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!"


*~Shel~*

I'm making another post today so my other one won't be so frickin' long.... >.<


Meggy is getting frustrated with her FTP so Brian and Sarah are coming over. I'm never gonna do my essays... ^^;;;;;; Oh well... I have until Friday for that stupid history one. GAOO.


*~Shel~*

Mya.... Today, I started my blog, der! =B But anyhoo.... Let's go back to the BEGINNING of today...


It started off around 12 am. Most days do. Brian, Sarah, and my roommate, Megan, were all in here having a good ol' time. I was attempting to do homework, but too many distractions.... u.u I love them though!!! *huggles* So they left about 12:06. 6 hours after they arrived! O_o Megan said a little bit.... GAOO. So I almost cry because I have 5 essays to do for my final exams, which sucks ROYALLY. Megan comforts me... woohoo. Then we fooled around and made many many quizzes. Nobody knew any of mine, but I got a perfect score on Megan's!!! XDD Meg takes a shower while I chill.... Then she plays Final Fantasy 7 while I sit here and smell her shrimp ramen. I no like shrimp. XP Then I fall asleep. I wake up a few hours later to find Meg curled up in a ball in the curve of my knees. O_o It frightened me.... So I woke up and moved and somehow she woke up and moved. ^^; Then we got woken up by our 'parents' who wanted us to go to breakfast. We declined, and fell back asleep. Kati comes knocking around 8:30 for us, and I'm like, 'Why didn't they get us like they promised?!' with they being our 'parents.' Needless to say, they were waiting outside the door to take a candid picture of us. ^^; BUT I'M GROUCHY IN THE MORNING! GAOO! Then we opened up all the gifts under the fiber optic Christmas tree. I got many neat things... *huggles her stuff* Mya! =^_^= And then I finished up one set of essays. Now I'm making this. ^^


Hmm... It is 1 and Kati is begging for lunch. Dead Day rules. Megan is cooing.... ^^; What the hell. I just read this to Megan. She calls this a novel. Well, der! =B


ANYhoo... On the topic of essays.... I don't want to do them. ^^; However.... I've got one collection of essays due tomorrow (that I finished! WAI!), one due Thursday, Friday, and then Monday. ICKY ESSAYS! PLUS a Biology exam!


About Monday.... *thinks this might BE a novel* ^^; I have to stay here until Monday... laone... in the dorm.... *cries* ;_; I cannot last! Meggy is going home Saturday, so I guess I'll have to find SOMEthing to do.


*nibbles on Tic Tacs* I have a, um, interesting point to make. Do NOT eat DARK BLUE ICING. No matter what!!!!! It is evil and doesn't turn just your tongue blue.... >.<


Quote of the Day: "Ugga Ugga Dinosaur!"
Don't ask... Trust me... Just don't. ^^;
This message is currently located on the answering machine! >=)~~~


*sucks on the helium balloons* Love and Peace!


*~Shel~*