This is one big joint set of posts from
my other blog that I felt was highly important or something... Oh well. Just check it out... And the tests are down at the VERY bottom now probably cuz this is some loooooooooong ass stuff. ^^; Gomen!
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STILL bored. -_- I want to have something to do... gaoo... But no... everyone would be in class right now. Piffles. blah blah blah...
I want to know what's going on myself. Someone please tell me. There's major things being unsaid in all directions... And no matter how hard I try to get my point across, I'm ignored. still. but hey... what else is new, ne? So whoever can talk sense into whoever. Either I'm seeing stuff about people no one else is or everyone is doing some REALLY good faking.
*~SHEL~* #
( 6:45 AM ) Michelle Ashman
La la la... I r bored. So I'll post. Again. u.u
Seems that there WERE things unsaid. Lots of things. Considering that I've noticed that Meg and I aren't the only two drifting apart... Oh well. At least we finally agreed on something today. Yay. And now I get to go from 10-5 without seeing her or Brian or Sarah. Not to be mean, but I'm G-L-A-D. I need another long break from anything and everyone related to this problem. A LOOOONG break. 4 hours was not enough... that high only lasted an hour... perhaps this 7 hour break will be MUCH MUCH better. ^^ And a shower will help me out as well... gaoo.
*~SHEL~* #
( 6:19 AM ) Michelle Ashman
Oh no... perhaps that last post was a bit to, um, harsh.
Actually no. Nevermind. It says my mind... And since everyone already hates me... ha. Screw it. XP
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( 6:03 AM ) Michelle Ashman
Marf... okay. I tell my thoughts and once again... pushed aside. So fine. PLEASE someone else tell what needs to be told. I try, and no one listens, so um, yeah. I shouldn't have to be the one being bitched at because I tell people a way I think will solve the problem but then get bitched at because people don't know how to solve the problem themselves. Know what? *flicks you guys off* There. Do it to me, I do it to you. Thanks.
*~SHEL~* #
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Monday, January 21, 2002
( 11:52 PM ) Michelle Ashman
.... wtf?
I was happy and hyper for the four hours I had no megan. I was off the wall hyper... I chilled with Kati and Chryss, which was sooooooooo much fun. And it smells nasty over here by my computer... I think it's the bad taste left in my mouth from whatever was on meg's arm when I bit it hard bc I warned I would and I did. So of course I get bitched at bc I bit hard and she lost feeling in arm/elbow or something. But oops... I ran outta gas about 7 minutes before the incident... so Shel is about as emotional as a dead man. Whee. As you can tell anyway... Normally, I care when someone is upset with me, but right now, nope. Can't say I feel a thing... could it be that all the shit going on around me has finally caused me to become as emotionally drained as everyone else? *shrug* who knows... I guess today really was my 'who gives a crap!' day because I can honestly say that not a single thing has caused me to feel upset. Ok, so I seem upset now. But to tell you the truth... I don't feel a thing. Normally when I'm upset, everything in me goes on hyperdrive... but right now... nope. I'm perfectly calm. And now everyone sides against me... woo. Oh well. Life sucks and then you die, right? Perhaps tomorrow I should spend time away from everything again... I get happy then at least... and bouncy. ^^ I like bouncing around. It is much fun. Everyone should do it once in awhile. ^^ ... And now my convo is being shared with the whole damn world... If I wanted everyone to see my IM convos, I'd post them on the damn blog. La de da... I wait and watch to see how many people get pissed off at reading this post. But hey... whatever, right? Hopefully tomorrow I'll actually care again... because I need to be there for Sarah and all. Brian and Megan have each other... but who's gonna help Sarah? I hope to be able to... Even though I'm not sure how... I don't even know what to say. But I'm going to try my hardest as no one else will... Well, people are trying... But not to the extent I think she needs. *shrug* Or I could be wrong...
Basically... if you're single... STAY SINGLE! Why? Erm... because dating sucks. People suck. And no, that's not to be taken pervertedly. I'm serious... I had my doubts about the single life for a year. And now... after this shit... hell. I've seen the WORST of dating. It tears apart friends and causes major rifts between former lovers or whatever they want to call themselves and blah blah blah...
Dammit... I'm coughing up feeling again into my blog. Oh well... Please don't discuss this with me... Because whatever I said, is what I think entirely and there's nothing more to say.
Eep.... 3 windows have been flashing me for minutes on end... *checks them* Wow...
Ah. finally. I get a hug. And no, I'm still out of gas. I want to care very very much, but I can't. I'd say it hurts that I can't care, but it doesn't... I'm sorry everyone. Today is just not my night for being there for anyone. I know this blog will upset people (most likely megan) but I'm sorry. This is me. Me being me... You asked today why I can't seem to accept you for you... well, the question is being aimed at you now. Take me as ME. Not as that me that most other people see. The me that I try to show you. Plz take what you see and not what you notice others see. I suppose I shall do the same for you. But if and only if you can take me for me... It's a two-way street ya know.
And no more icky blood clot spider veins... those things suck (both physically and mentally) for the rest of the world who views those as such. *rolls eyes* And yes, get pissed off about that statement, but I'll just wait for the day when I get asked if I wanna see the one on your breast... *thinks of Lauren* ah yes. The days when a young girl became completely corrupted by a low-life who wants to become a politian. Fun stuff. REALLY fun stuff.
Quote of the Day: "I r special cuz I have been warned by a llama!"
Me to Kenny when me, him, brian, and megan all went out on our warning war on AIM. Before all the other stuff happened.
*~SHEL~*